Tag: hope
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Angiosarcoma, The Thief
As expected, my levels dropped critically low again and I need another transfusion. So I am currently in the hospital, staring down four hours of just sitting around. Hopefully I will walk out of here not feeling quite so cruddy, though.Every time we come back from Texas, it takes some time to settle back into…
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Full Steam Ahead
We’re on the final flight back to Albany and I realized it’s been quite a few days since I last focused on where I’m at in this journey.4 out of 6 cycles. Done. And I’d like to think despite the few side effects, that I handled them well. I know transfusions are probably in my…
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Let’s All Plan to Celebrate
I am currently in the waiting room, ready to start cycle 4. There’s always a brief moment of fear and not wanting to go through this again before I go in. But that fear is always replaced with determination. The cancer will not win and I will not let the chemo beat me down.Chemo will…
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Watch Out For Those Shoes
Do any of you ever have days where you feel like you are getting away with something but really aren’t? But are also waiting for the metaphorical shoe to drop on your head at the same time? Let me try to explain…Ever since getting back home from Houston, I often find that a Cheshire Cat-like…
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♫ Whoa, We’re Halfway There! ♫
Cycle 3 is in full swing but I am officially halfway done with infusions for this regimen! Caleb got me started with day 1 but had to head home for some important meetings so my wonderful Momma came down to spend a little (or a lot of) time with me. This cycle the nausea came…
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Back In Houston Again
Yesterday, Caleb and I met with Dr. Ravi. We were both pretty nervous considering how contentious the last appointment felt to us. Thankfully, both the nurse and the doctor seemed unfazed by any tension Caleb and I may have felt in our previous communications.The appointment went incredibly well. We had contacted Dr. Ravi ahead of…
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Find The Joy
I had a bit of an emotional day yesterday. We have been trying to find a way to minimize the amount of time I have to stay in Houston after each treatment. We visited Roswell in hopes that they could take over the chemotherapy infusions. The doctor, although very nice and knowledgeable, did not want…
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Keep Your Heart Full
Yesterday my friend (and fellow sarcoma warrior) asked me a question that has stuck with me since. She wanted to know if I still found myself wondering how this cancer could happen to me. She wanted to know if I was still angry about it. The short answer is yes, every single day. A small…
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Keep On Fighting
This post is mainly for anyone going through some sort of cancer battle, fighting each day to get to that victory on the other side of the battlefield. But it is also for anyone struggling with something so big that it slaps you in the face right in the middle of an ordinary moment: mental…
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Gearing Up For The Next Battle
Tomorrow Caleb and I head back to Houston for cycle 2 of chemotherapy. I’m rested and energized from all the time I finally got to spend with my kids. I’ve got my bag packed with all of the wonderful things friends and family sent me. And I am ready. Dr. Ravi told me that cancer…
Spontaneous Sunshine 